Where the hell is the remote control?

I finally sent my dss sign up form. Three times. *headdesk*
Yet-I'm participating in something! :P And in the ds c6d big bang, too. Just as an artist, in both(And, huh, am I nervous about those deadlines. Some of you may have noticed my ability to keep up with such things. *cough*none*cough* I'll make it this time though! I hope.), but still. Writing is too scary :P.

My connection is outrageously slow and not at all what we pay for. I told them we shouldn't have renewed this contract.

I'm suddenly feeling very nostalgic over Buffy and my days years spent (mostly lurking) in this fandom for some reason. I hadn't really though of it for ages, haven't read anything but the occasional favourite story in years. There were WIPs that I was following that I don't remember the titles of, or even the plot, favourite authors' names that I can't remember, the knowledge that I've read hundreds of good fics and most of it is all foggy. And I think I want some of it back. So many sites down. That always depresses me a lot, sites that were there forever and then you check on them in a while and "this domain is for sale/404/closed/etc". Even worse than most authors I knew having left the fandom, that had started happening even back then. I guess some of the fics that weren't widely archived are gone forever. And the music videos, I used to collect all the award winning vids from all the big award sites and then some. I really loved those,I'd even started making my own vid and it wasn't even turning out too shabby, but then the comp crashed and I never reinstalled the program. I was watching those clips the other day, maybe that triggered all of this.

Um, I haven't forgotten the zombie vampire kitten, I just messed up the teeth and haven't fixed them still :P

I was going to be reading and sleeping and stuff, but instead I watched For Those Who Hunt The Wounded Down for the second time. And I first saw it some three or four years ago, so I'd forgot a lot of the details, but i think seeing it now, already knowing the plot and being able to pay closer attention to everything(the acting!)- it all hit me harder. EVERY SINGLE THING HE DID WAS TRYING TO SAVE HIS BOY, DAMN IT *cry*(Ok, no, but it was all about helping someone. Someone not him.). And it was all so PRESET and his mind was preset and must it be so easy to picture this in reality?! Like, you dig yourself a hole and at a point it gets so deep that who and what you've become and what you do don't matter anymore. That was almost worse than the end that you can feel from the beginning. Almost. CKR's acting, reservations on his side or not, is nothing short of superb and I know that's no news to anybody, but I've just had an hour and a half of my heart being broken by his every look, so.
It's a great movie, with great acting(from everyone), but it took me all these years to watch it again for a reason.
And it's 5am again *headdesks* and I should really go to bed.

( The Politics Test Meme )
I hate politics. Any kind. So I don't think I've done such a test before :P Still...am I really so close to the centrists? Huh.


And I have so many good books piled up to read, that I was dying to get to while I had no time. Now I have stared a few, but I just can't. I don't feel like reading a book. What the fuck's wrong with me?! Ok, that's happened before, but I was way more depressed than I am (aware of being) atm. /o\

As usually, I'm a bit late, but I got into Flashpoint and I saw Never Kissed A Girl today and loved it. It just begged for a picspam. I started capping and remembered why I do this so rarely-once I start, I can't stop :P. So, here is Ed Lane. A lot.
( NOT dial-up friendly, about 90 images behind the cut )



Oh and the other day Flashpoint+the s1 Torchwood declassified that I'd downloaded but forgot to watch really did the cheering up trick. Especially 1x12. And Naoko Mori is such a fangirl :D

I finally got my Visa Electron back. And I managed to get me the 100 userpics add-on, only failing to enter the information correctly 4 or 5 times! :D (I've used a debit card for an internet payment only once before. And I fought with the form for hours back then :P).
I can't wait to finish making dinner and get on with the uploading *g*
ETA: 105 userpics? Weren't they supposed to be 100? Not that I'm complaining. Not at all.

when I got back from the smelly morgues today??
A paid account. And icons for me. I really don't know what to say.(except, again, you shouldn't have *blush*) Either my birthday came a week earlier this year, or it's somehow Christmas and stormymouse is an awesomer version of Santa. First you show me the light(aka Torchwood aka Jack and Ianto aka John Barrowman and Gareth David-Lloyd) and now this? *hugs hard* &hearts

I can't wait to go home and upload icons in peace.

Weird dreams seem to plague my family lately *l*. That's what happen when your mind is in a thousand places at once :P. I caught a glimpse of All The Pretty Horses on tv yesterday, just so you know that my brain didn't suddenly come up with the rodeo thoughts on its own. *cough* Except in my dream, I was going to be breaking in what at first looked like a trotting horse, but then morphed into a huge goat. That I was gonna jump on, anyway, except suddenly one of the Anatomy TA's appeared and took it, because it was like one of those dried body parts that are used for studying. Then we went in to dissect it(which is actually done in the Pathoanatomy, and with a fresh corpse, but that'd be logic :P)...in my high school's gym. The goat was hollow and dry, but there was blood everywhere, and I remember very vividly how I was annoyed that I only had one pair of gloves and would have to dirty my hands. And it turned out there were some kind of tape worms inside. Also dried. We went for lunch at a place that is most definitely not next to my school. And during the whole thing, at the same time, at the same place, I was having a really warm and fuzzy dream about Brian and Justin being awfully cute together!! (The mechanics of that evade me.) And I was Justin(!), but just for short periods of time. (Seriously. I am very often male in my dreams. But Justin Taylor?! WTF?!). While I that was me was cutting the dead goat in the semi-parallel reality. At least I got to kiss Brian while I was Justin. That was nice. Very.
*facepalm* And it all kinda makes sense, when I put it together like that *lol* You can spare me the realistic part when I'm asleep at least, stupid subconsciousness!

That was actually going to be a post with my thoughts about Torchwood's finale and everything, but then I suddenly remembered a goat in danger of being mounted.
Anyway- let me at least complain that Owen can't have been 27! First off- Burn Gorman doesn't look 27 at all(and isn't). Second- he's a doctor for fuck's sake. Their own calculations don't add up. He must have been 23 when Jack recruited him, and and an established professional. Unless the British system is very different...that's rubbish :]. It just bugs me when people don't think when creating canon.

Erm. I couldn't resist the header that cowboyhd made *facepalm*. I've been tired of the last layout for ages, but too lazy to do anything about it. And this one keeps up with the kissing theme so nicely... :D It's only for a few days, a week at the most, then I'll change it with something more work safe (and less cheesy :P). I've also been meaning to change the title to "where the hell is the remote control", but it wouldn't seem right with that banner *l*.

And...


...o.O I bet it was an interesting Hair.

ETA: Oops, I'd left the height set for the previous header. Fixed it and now they're the right(bigger) size.

Ok, this? Is the greatest thing, ever. It being ComicCon and (part of) the very appropriately nicknamed Innuendo Squad. Gareth and John are priceless.
*rotflmao*

ETA: Damn you, Torchwood writers, you are gonna make me hate James Marsters' character, aren't you?! How could you! Really, could you think of nothing better :[[
ETA2: ...Phew?
ETA3: Yeah, phew. *blows nose* More coherent thoughts later. (And what am I gonna do without my Captain Jack fix now?!)

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